Compromise, You're Metal

I keep searching for escapes
For cracks to fall into
And I hate myself more than yesterday
Than the day prior
I keep falling at the gates
Feeling pathetic again
But I’m not the worst off
Not even, not even
I keep searching for escapes
For cracks to slip into
Regretting all I never do or say
I’m expiring within myself
Blaming everyone
Trying to gain a clean slate
Because I’m feeling desperate again
But I’m not the worst off
Not even, not even
I keep searching for escapes,
Desperately
For cracks to fall into
Delve into
I keep searching for escapes,
Eagerly
For cracks to slip into
Drown into
I keep searching for escapes